Tuesday, June 28, 2005
My days are out of perception
My future’s an unclear way
As I continue to question,
How will I be from today?
I know I’ll be heading somewhere.
And this is where I’ll start.
I cannot wait anymore.
I have to let it all begin.
But where do I step to?
What road will I walk on?
What choice will I pick?
Will I follow myself or others?
I’ll wonder until the day.
Soon, I will know the answers.
Soon, I will find the way.
I’ll fly to the dream I always have.
That day will be the day.
Monday, 9:00 am
I have no idea why I felt that my class is 9:30 even if its really 10:30.. So at this time, nagmamadali na ako kasi magpapaprint pa ako at bibili ng booklet at magtetest na.. Hindi ko pa tapos yung searching problems aralin.. Madali akong pumuntang school at madali rin akong bumili ng test booklet at maghabol ng onting pag-aaral.. Pagdating ko sa G401.. Nagtetest na sila pero ibang prof yung nanduon.. pero naisip ko naman proctor siya so i got a copy of the test and answered as much as I can..
Monday, 10:20 am
Ang hirap naman ng exam na ito.. Pero hula-hula pa rin sa pagsagot.. Oh, no.. time na daw.. minadali ko na.. When I start realizing that I don't know the people here.. Bakit nandito sina Gino, Ajong at Nica? Sino tong katabi ko? That's when I realize.. This is not my class.. Gosh..
Pero pinasa ko pa rin malay mo.. This is a similar test pala eh di free na ako sa 10:30-11:30.. Mejo alangan pa rin ako kasi akala ko kaklase ko sina Lex..
Monday, 10:30 am
Bumaba ako sa Gox, 3rd floor..Nakita ko sina Eunice.. It affirm this.. My class really is on 10:30.. So umakyat uli ako.. Inintay si Mam.. "Miss, nagtest na po ako sa class ni Sir Borra.. Akala ko po kasi 9:30 class ko..panu po yun?" She replies."Magkaiba yung test namen ni Sir Borra.. You have to take the test again.." So be it.. I hurriedly walk (running hurts on my black shoes) to Sports Complex and bought another test booklet.. and took ny 2nd algocom departmental exam1 part 1.. At least mas madali siya.. May subjective pa rin kahit papaano..May part lang na hindi ko talaga alam sagutan so hinulaan ko na lang..Nuong pinasa ko wrong size pa ng booklet.. Err..
1. I got to practice before I took the real test..
2. I now have a funny story to tell..
The day continues:
1. Tanong ni Ai, gusto ba daw naming sumamam sa poetry nights.. Sabi ko, di me OK. Next time na lang naten pagusapan..
2. I wnated to ask someone if she was from Malate, I ended up appearing as if I was hitting on her... Kahihiyan..
1. Galing ng presentation namen sa Introse..
2. Alam ko na ang gagawin sa Introse.. No time to do it nga lang..
3. Napa-approve ko yung Ga ng hindi na cacancell yung reservation
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Today was supposedly the last day of recruitment..
Thursday, 7:30 am
Texted Jen, Ja, Rom, Yanna and Jeck: “Last day na today!... Pay up..”
After which I studied that friggin’ RELSTRI subject.
Thursday, 9:10 am
Went to CSO and got the WG kit from Germaine. Went down to SJ walk while studying the few pages left in my RELSTRI notes that I haven’t read yet.
Left the kit to the WG bulletin board and texted JEJ to meet yanna while walking to my class..
Thursday, 10 am
Finally, after his long talk on how to answer examinations and a story on some screwy topic that I really didn’t listen to.. The test began.. Answer it right away. Very bad on the objective party but ok in the essay part… I hated the objectives part am I supposed to care about the name of these people, I just care at their compositions?
Thursday, 11:05 am
Waited for Jeck sa third bench sa sj walk from Miguel.. Pagdating niya wala pa siyang barya since siya yung 1st customer ko at hindi nagkita si Jej at Yanna.. Buti na lang kaharap lang naming yung z2..
Nagtext si Iya sa aken tapos, nagbayad na rin siya…
Thursday, 12:00 am
Antagal ko ring nagantay kay Jeck tapos niya si Iya.. Then pumunta kay Ate Rida para magpareserve ng room..
Thursday, 12:10 am
Papauwi na.. Dumaan sa s19 tambayan.. wala naman duon sina Val..so umuwi na lang ako..
Thusday, 2:30 pm
Walang pambayad si Mark, Erik, Rika and Val..Err..
Tapos, meet with Yanna (finally) then
Meeting with Sir Torralba
Thursday, 4:20 pm
Meet with Rom to get payment..
Meet with Mark to audit..
Removed all posters I put this week.
Arranged all the things in the cabinet
Thursday, 5:30 pm
Left for home.. finally!!!
BTW, Its not yet over..
Masaya na nakakapagmember pa rin ako o ng mga officers ko ng mga tig-aapat sa the past few days..
We had already attained an increase in the membership by siguro one digit lang na percentage pero "an improvement is a plus factor for an org kahit papaano".
If you still want to join WG, last day na ito.. Text me na lang.. and I'll meet ya..
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Veron texted me.. Oo-oh.. I have to be there na pala.. Ang layo ko pa sa sakayan.. Tinext ko siya.. "May participants na ba?" She replies "Wala pa." Oh my.. not again.."Macacancell na naman itoh.."
Kaasar tinext ko pa naman lahat ng new members at nakipagusap ako with Fast '02 to help in attendance.. Inimail ko na rin yung batch assembly ko para pumunta.. Itetext ko na rin sana ang mga s19 peeps pero I know that they have classes.. Wala pa namang nagconfirm sa akeng pupunta.. Si Trina at Maricel lang.. Tinext ko si Maricel.. Maleleyt daw siya.. Gosh..
Saturday, 9:20 am
I'm late. Trina:"Nandito na ang magaling na presidente, late!". On the verge of tears and feeling really frustrated. I walked on.. Veron: "Kinukuha ni Miss Eve yung projector, puntahan naten siya kasi matagal na siya dun". Kennet:"Ako na lang sasama, ientertain mo ang members" Gosh, may members.. sana times two sila para umabot ng 15..
Thirdy:"Miss Eve, pwede bang ituloy naten ito.. Kasi nakakahiya naman sa new members atsaka nakaka-err sa mga officers kasi pangalawang ulit na ito.." Miss Eve says We can't but we understand your situation kasi a few years ago, bam who was then then president of Writers' Guild underwent the same dilemma and it also experienced by other orgs as well.. But we have a rule that we should follow. What I can do is explain this to the officers and members the situation and you can take this time to discuss among yourselves how you can improve the organization.. This went on for about 15 minutes and Thanks to Miss Eve coz she inspired me to go on.. Silver lining as pointed out by Miss Eve: " At least nakikita mo yung truly commited sa org at with the 3 members who attended you can see that they are already excited about the organization and is showing indication that they are really interested in the organization..Maybe you can get their suggestions to how you can improve the organization.."
Miss Eve and Veron is already leaving and I'm going to have to make this fun.. Fortunately, I had to research once of icebreaker games and I started the short meeting with icebreaker named "Picture this". I asked everyone to draw any picture that is related to themselves. So everyone did.. It worked.. Everyone shared a part of themselves and I even see some officers showing that WG is really their priority..
We just finished the icebreaker and Trick already left coz tumakas lang siya sa class..
We talked about what is WG? How inspiring that all three answers are as what I want the members to see WG as..
Next , I discussed the expectations of the org and asked them what they expect from the org as well as their suggestions.. Positive naman at may mga ideas na makakatulong sa amen..
Inaayos na namen yung room at tapos na yung short meeting.. Ang saya naman at positive yung nangyari despite the cancellation. Sana ganito lagi sa org.. Kapag ganito hindi malayo ang number 1 at ang TAYO..
From that, that's my goals again.. WG should be number 1 sa accred at manominate sa TAYO..
Thanks sa SDO for inspiring me..
Thanks to the new members and committed officers who are always there.. especially yung sa laging nandun.. I never appreciated it much.. Now I do.. You made continue this stressful life..
WG rocks.. Being president, continues to make me stronger and wiser..
Sobrang.. GOGOGO WG!!
Now back to Introse work.. tagal naman nito magupload..
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
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Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Kapag nagagalit ako. Hindi ko nilalabas. Tinatago ko..
I'm on a higher ground.. Ang galit ay pagpapakita ng weak side mo..
Pagpapakita ng kawalan mo ng kontrol..
I don't think about negativity too much..
Hinihinga ko siya at hindi ko iniisip o kinikimkim.
Ayoko maging strict unless gusto mo ng strict..
Ako ay OCOC pero ayokong mangulit ng mga tao dahil
Nakaranas na akong makulit and its not a bit of interesting
I will change for you.. but I can't stop being me.. Pasensya na.. tao lang
Hindi ako robot.. Tao lang 3/4 water.. 1/4 other stuff
I may be a "programmer" but humans cannot be controlled they can only be facilitated.
Tao ako hindi ko kayang diktahin ang gagawin ko..
May sarili akong thirdy-ness.. At walang makakaalis nun sa aken..
Monday, June 13, 2005
I always find the silver lining sa bad situations..
Pero tatalon na talaga ako..
I'm feeling constrained again..
Epal naman.. Ayoko na...
Ayoko na maging bata.. Wala akong tunay na boses.. Isang ideologikal or utopian idea of unity ang hinahanap ko.. Hindi ko naman talaga makakamtan ito.. Epal.. Tatalon na ako..
Ayoko na ng responsibilidad.. I'm 19 and I'm handling something na ayaw kong pansinin sa ngayon.. Masama bang wag makialam.. bigyan niyo naman ako ng isang linggo.. kahit 5 araw lang..
Ayoko na ng tali sa leeg.. Ang hirap maging scholar.. 2.0 dapat.. at walang bagsak.. hindi ako si superman.. si batman pa siguro.. pero inaaral ko pa kung paano..
Ayoko ng tali sa kamay.. Ang hirap ng walang pera... iniintay ko pa yung araw na ililibre ko yung buong catch2t7 kasi close na kaming lahat.. Ililibre ko rin yung buong WG dahil mahal namin ang isa't-isa...
Ayoko ng kagat-kagat ko ang aking labi.. Bakit ba ang hirp kong intindihin.. bakit ang hirap nateng magkaintindihan?
Bakit? Ahh.. Basta tatalon na ako...
Sana tumangkad pa ako..
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Una, kelangan umatend ng CB meeting every week..
Pangalawa, kelangan mong paulit-ulit na pagtuunan ng pansin ang iyong mga officers dahil hindi sila nakikinig sa iyo 20% of the time.
Pangatlo, ang dami nilang reklamo. Hindi ako superhero para bigyan lunas ang lahat ng iyan.
Pangapat, wala akong magagawa sa sistema kung ang SC nga naghihirap na magmeeting every week para sulusyunan ang partial na parte ng problema.. Panu pa kaya kami na isang hamak na organization lamang
Panglima, hindi madaling mag-aral at magtrabaho.. kaya wag niyo akong kulitin..
Pang-anim, hindi ako Diyos.. Napapagod at nagkakasakit din ako.. Hindi rin ako perpekto kaya pagpasensyahan niyo na tao lang..
Pangpito, wag kayong mag-away ng walang dahilan sapagkat ito ay katangahan..
Pangwalo, GROW UP..
Pangsiyam, wag niyo akong baguhin tatlong taon ko nang inaasikaso ang mga bagay na ito.. kayo ganu na katagal?
Pangsampu, Kung ginagamit niyo na lang yang reklamo niyo sa tamang paraan eh di sucess pa lahat..
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Sa ALGOCOM, nagexercise kami.. Narealize kong wala talaga akong alam.. Well, meron naman kahit papaano.. Sobrang onti lang compared to what should be known
Sa COMORGA, nagkaroon ng graded exercise.. Eto wala talaga akong alam.. trinay kong sagutan pero mali pala at hindi ko pa dala yung mga notes na prinint ko sa hindi ko na lang pinasa kasi wala rin naman akong sagot so wag na lang aaralin ko na to dapat..
Ayokong bumagsak talaga, sana magets ko yung mga subjects ko..
Sunday, June 05, 2005
Qualms1: CB meeting.. I dunno if its just me but I find CSO unorganized.. It may just be a pattern but it should be changed..
Qualms2:No free time.. My scheduled free time should be 1-2:30 but on Mondays, i have the CB meetings; on Wednesdays, i have u break which is 7/10 composed of org activities or meetings; thank god, i have fridays which is occupied by my other meetings..
Qualms3: Wrong action are with consequences. Failing to confirm on time occurs sanctions.. Ngayon ko lang nalaman yon.. Ngayon ko lang nalaman yung mga yon.. nakakainis talaga..